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sometime feel him so disconnected not him , his ideas his soul he know she do not like him and will not even after 1000 years , she will never remove the image of her lover and put him in the same place , her ex-lover will be ever the one in her eyes , so he decide not to be with anyone ales , but he can not control him self from being with gays and have some fun with them i think that because he never see him self with any woman ales except her , but when i asked him about how he know that he like boys and be a bi. he tell me he do not like to talk about that i think from the way he did it , he had a bad story in his mind his memory poor him he only make love with boys to forget her and he will not

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i bored ya too bored .
scary from the future , collage's exams , want to pass but i do not think that is the reason that i am bored , no i feel that as there is a big fat thought in my mind that i will never never find my soulmate , i see no hope in that , i dono , some time i have bad bad ideas about the future and how should i be , think about myself as a bitch do not think about anything just play around and get whatever i can . sometime i want to cry