Saturday, 7 November 2009

mr. one

It was just like any other day with each other , starting with his call to meet him then he catch me with his car till we arrive his house , this day dunno feel different thought because our last meeting , he decide not to meet me again as he want to be normal actually in every time we met he open that issue . and talk and talk and it always finished as he do not like being gay and will not me again and i like my life as a gay . that time , i really can not take any more from that issue . so i begin to talk with him as when i want to have a lover that i dream about he will be like you but not you . he wondered " why " . "as you always do not like being a gay and you not have free time for anything so how it will be with me " i said that . i think he missed my point then and told me that he is here and my answer was the same .
but i did not lie to him , if i want a lover i want him to be the one , he is the first one i slept between his arm like a baby .
i really used to meet him from a while to while , but this days i really miss him , i think i will call him now

Wednesday, 4 November 2009

يا رب

انا راجع من الكويت
اول مقالي كدة فرحت اوي
و قررت اني اقرب منه اكتر احسسنه بمشاعري نحيته و كنت بجلم باليوم الي اقعود معه لوحدينا و يبا كلام عن الجاي
هو لحد مقليش انه جاي و لا انا اقولتله بس كل منبا لوحدينا يتكلم عنهم
مرة يتكلم عن الجاي الديزينرز و ان اغلب مصصممي الملابس جاي و كدة
مرة عن انهم زي العسل في الكلام و الشات و كدة
اخر مرة دي كانت الصدمة انه مرة نام مع واحد اعترافلي بكدة
بس للاسف كانت اقبل ما يسافر من ساعتها و للاسف التاني انه كل ميتكلم في الموضوع انا كنت بغيره بسرعة و انا بفكر فيه و في حاجة كنا بنعملها مع معبض
يوم ما قبلته بعد ما رجع حسيت انه اتغير اوي
و ان الموضوع صغب اني افتحه من تاني لازم استني لما يتكلم هو زي كل مرة:(
يا رب يتكلم تاني