Tuesday, 13 May 2008

mother

i am so close to my mother since i was child , and now i do not tell her anything , i lie to her when i came out in date , when i talk to someone in phone ...atc

sometime i feel like i should tell her the truth about me that me gay . but many friends tell me not to do it . as it maybe coast me everything .
now i am so tired from thinking in that , i hate ling so i hate myself when i lie to her , i hope someday i can tell her the truth , i wish that she feeling me , feeling who am i and accept me as i am what i am .

sometime i try to talk with her about anything about my dreams that she do not know why i dreamed about , i believe in eyes language but she do not feel me .

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen


Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

this words sometime i hope i tell her

p.c this words from listen to beyonce

2 comments:

masternino said...

اسمح لى ان ادلى برائى فى هذا الموضوع
نظرا للتقاليد والعادات والدين وموقف الام فى حد ذاته
فانى لا انصحك باخبارها بذلك
فمن سابقى رؤيتى لتجارب اصدقائى الشباب والذين خاطروا منهم واعلموا اهلهم بذلك وكذلك الذين لم يعلمةمنهم
تعالى نشوف الاتى
الام اسم من حرفين ولكن بيتكون بعد تعب ومجهود وامال وصبر
الست فى بلدنا بعد مابتخلف مالهاش هم فى الدنيا الا انها تعيش حياتها فى اولادها
بمعنى يبقى شغلها الشاغل ولادها وبس
وطبعا بتحلم بمستقبلهم وحياتهم واولادهم اللى حيبقوا احفادها
علشان كده لما بيكون الشاب مثلى
ممكن يصيبها باحباط واكتئاب ويأس شديد ممكن يخلص عليها
وده غير ان الام ماتتعوضش ولا بكل مافى الدنيا من ملذات ومال ومباهج وكل مايخطر على بالك
لذا علشان خاطرها هى ماتقولهاش
الاب ممكن يستحمل وياخد قرار ممكن صح وممكن غلط لكن حاياخد قرار وينفذه وخلاص
اما الام فهى كارثة بكل المقاييس
صدقنى يابنى
اوعى حتى تحسسها باى حاجه
دى احلى شىء فى الدنيا ربنا ادهولك
حافظ عليه وربنا معاك
اسف انى طولت عليك
لكن مدونتك اعجبتنى لبساتطها وتلقائيتها
تقبل تحياتى
وشرفنى بقرائه مدونتى
وخاصة مدونة فى حياتى امراءة اخرى

hassona said...

اهلا بيك مسترنينو في مدونتي
واشكرك جدا علي النصيحة وعلي زيارتك لمدونتي وعلي الدعودة
انا مبفكرش اني قولها بس فس ساعات بيبا هو دا لحل علشان الواحد يحس براحة داخلية مع نفسه ولولو فعلا الاعراف والتقاليد كان الواحد اعلانها من زمان وخلص